Hello, body. This is brain.

Dear Body,

I know you must be pretty annoyed with me right now. You’re sore and achy, and even a little hungry. Since we started down this road 3 years ago, I’ve pushed you past what you thought was possible. When you scream out to stop, I ignore you. I tune you out and you can’t convince me to quit.

I can be kind of stubborn in that way.

But I promise you, the benefits are real. You are stronger. Remember yesterday when you cleaned 105 pounds? You’ve never lifted that amount from the ground in your life. You never even tried. But you’re capable, and I know you’re growing stronger.

And because you’re stronger, I’m stronger too. I feel more confident, and I spend less time worrying about what other people think about me. I feel sharp and alert. I still feel like a college kid, but without any of the awkwardness and uncertainty that plagued me all those years ago.

You are amazing for putting up with me. For putting up with the bruises, fatigue and pain. We are on a journey, you and I. And we will never be the same.

Best,
Brain

Wednesday
Olympic lifting
Hip Clean x5 w/ bar, 3×4 by feel → 35, 55/65/75/85
Clean off block 3×3, 2×2 → 85/95/100, 95/95
Clean 1×5 → 95/100/100/100/105
Back Squats find heavy single 120/125/130
-then- 85% x3, 90% x2, 95%x1, 90%x3 → 110/115/125/115

Thursday
Crossfit Class
Back Squat 5×3 → 95-105-115-135-(no time)
3 rounds: 15 HSPU / 10 Hang Power Cleans
Time: 5:57 @ 75#

CC Flyers kicks my butt… again

I laugh when I think about this morning’s benchmark. CC Flyers came around again. It looks like this:

“CC Flyers”
3 rounds
400 m run
21 box jumps
12 Overhead squats (M 95# / W 65#)

Or is it 10 over head squats? Or 15? And when is the cut off?

Haha. :) I remember being so proud to finish this benchmark three months ago. But in October, the benchmark was different. They only had us do 10 overhead squats. And the cutoff was 15 min.

Today, the cut off was 12 minutes, and there were 12 overhead squats. I know it seems like a tiny change, but it made a big difference. I did not finish.

Completed 2 rounds + run + 3 box jumps RX in 12 minutes

What’s also different this time is how I feel about that. I don’t feel disappointed. I’m not angry. And I didn’t feel it was necessary to argue with Zach or Aaron about the time limit. I’m OK with the WOD being harder. It changed the rules of the game and made things a little more interesting. And Zach is absolutely right — I CAN finish CC Flyers in under 12 minutes, I just have to bring my A-game next time.

I think my running is suffering a little. I haven’t been doing any running outside the warm up. I miss it. I’m halfway considering signing up for the Cap 10K this year, even though it means I’ll probably run alone. But it will give me a reason to run again.

I haven’t forgotten that my goal is to add competitions to my schedule. I missed the Fittest Games, but I’m hoping something will come along. Maybe this Clean competition in College Station? Hmmm… anyone want to join me?

Workouts for January 16-20, 2012

I couldn’t keep up with posting my workout separately every day this week. Life got in the way and something had to give. Unfortunately, as much as I love to write, blogging got the short stick.

Here are the workouts I did this past week:

Sunday
Explosive Strength
A) 2-DB Spilt Snatch 3×5 @ 20# (60 sec rest)
B) 2-DB Push Jerk 3×5 @ 30# (60 sec rest)
4sets: C) 1-arm Bench Press x 4 @ 25# / Full-depth pushups on toes x 8
D) 60 sec Wall Squat (Max-tension) / Jumping Squats x 10
Finisher: 15x 3 DB swings (each arm @ 30#)

It’s time to make this workout harder. The wall squats and jumping squats were cake. And I realized that I’m strong enough to keep my core tight during pushups without “snaking.” It’s also time to bump up the dumbbell weight a little.

Monday
Olympic lifting
Drop Snatch 3×3, 2×3, 1×3 → 55/55/60, 65/65/70, 75/80/85
Snatch w/ pause below knee 2×3 → 50/50/50
Hang Snatch 1×4 → 50/50/50/50
Power Jerk 4×4 → 65/70/75/80
Front Squat 75% 4×3 → 95/95/95/95

I walked out of class feeling really good. There were several times I finally landed the snatch and it felt more natural. I know the weight is a little low, but I’ve been struggling so much with technique, that I would love to “get it” before worrying about bumping up the weight. I even got a “Good Job” from Zach.

Tuesday
Crossfit class
Shoulder mobility
10 min AMRAP
5 Muscle Ups
10 Overhead Squats
Results → 4 rounds + 5 MUs + 5 OHS @ 65#

I really liked doing shoulder mobility beforehand — I felt all loosey-goosey. But it’s didn’t last long. I felt like a giant mound of sore muscles after this workout. I scaled the muscle ups from my knees.

Wednesday
Olympic lifting
Hip Power Snatch + BN PUsh Press + OHS 3+3+3×4 → 50/50/55/55
Hang Snatch w/ pause below knee 2×4 → 55/55/55/60
Clean + Front Squat + Spilt Jerk 1+3+2×3, 1+2+1×2 → 60/65/75, 80/85
Snatch Grip RDL 90% (of snatch) 5×3 → 65/65/65

I wasn’t as successful with form during this workout. Zach had a classic look of horror on his face when he saw me clean and then jerk 85#. I thought about using an excuse (because 85# is my max), but I know that crap doesn’t fly with him.

He told me to sign up for the Olympic Lifting seminar with his coach and Olympic lifting expert Ursula Garza, so of course I did. I’ll definitely write about my experience.

Thursday
Crossfit class
Power Cleans 5×7 (do not drop bar during set)
55-60-65-70-(no time)
5 rounds: 9 Burpees Pullups / 15 GHD Situps
Cutoff 10mins: finished 4 rounds + 5 Burpee pullups (jumped from low box)

So close. It only I had a couple more minutes I could have finished.

This time the burpee pullups were more challenging. The band was not an option for pulups, so I set up a low box with a 45# plate under the bar. That made it harder to jump my chin over the bar, so I had to work harder. I HATED the GHD machine — not because it was hard, but because of how unstable it was. I felt like my butt was going to fall through one round — so this made me REALLY slow.

Friday
Rest Day. Yay!

On Thursday evening, I started feeling a pain around my right shoulder blade area in the back. It was awful. I just happened to have an appointment with the chiropractor the next morning, who told me that it has everything to do with the constant tension I feel from my neck down to my shoulders, which has everything to do with some of my muscles not being properly conditioned.

So now I have more exercises to do every day (in addition to the ones I’m doing to strengthen my left hip). SIGH.

Oh well, at the least the pain is already gone.

And the scale goes up…

I stepped on the scale this morning for the first time in a couple of weeks. I really shouldn’t do that.

For months my weight has been pretty steady. This morning, it was up. Hmmmm….

My knee jerk reaction is that this Zone thing and eating lunch is not working the way I intended. Fortunately, part of me is a little calmer, and I’m considering the other possibilities.

For one, stepping on the scale once in the morning is just a snapshot. Weight fluctuates throughout the day. Secondly — maybe what I ate over Christmas finally caught up to me. Third — I haven’t slept as much lately thanks to a freelance gig I just took, so the cortisol is probably going crazy.

It’s only been a few days of zoning Paleo. I’m still figuring this whole thing out. To be honest — it’s a complete pain in the butt. I can feel myself getting a little obsessive. This is not something anyone with a history of eating disorders should go near.

However, portion control is the ultimate goal. I’m no longer breastfeeding, but my brain is used to eating a lot of food to support it. So really, I need to get my brain used to less food. And hopefully, this will help fuel muscle growth.

In the meantime, it’s been a front squat kind of week!

Wednesday
Hip Power Snatch + BN Snatch Grip Push Press + OHS 3+3+3×3 → 45/45/50
Hang Snatch below the knee 2×3, 1×3 → 55/55/55, 55/55/60
Clean Pulls 5×3 → 70×3
Front Squat 65% 4×4 → 85/85/85/85

Thursday
Front squat 3×5 → 85/95/105/115/120
Team of 3 For Time:
2K row
100 Dual KB Thrusters
100 Burpees
Results: Team w/ Kat & Beth → 1500m row + 100 burpees+100 thrusters @ 25# DB (me), 20# DB (them)
Cutoff: 15min

The team WOD was fun, but what we did in class was NOT what they tweeted out the night before. It was supposed to be a 5K row and 250 each of the thrusters and burpees. We probably would have done it if there had been no strength component. But there just wasn’t time.

Well, off to bed for a little sleep tonight. G’night!

You don’t win the warmup

My poor Google reader is feeling so neglected. Twitter has become my news feed. I find so many interesting posts and articles related to my different interests.

Wouldn’t you know, most of the people I follow talk about health, Crossfit or Paleo. I should REALLY branch out a bit.

But one of the feeds I follow is @CAthletics, and I love the quotes and blog links the post. One that really interested me is on warmups, and how they are meant to warm you up — for real. They’re not supposed to rival your workout in intensity.

I’ve been thinking about that on my warm up runs – both in class and at home. I used tear out of the gate, trying like hell to get back before everyone else. OK — I tried not to be last. That was my big worry.

Then Andy told me, “Cindy, you don’t win the warmup.” And I realized racing in the warm up is kind of silly if it wears you out before the workout. So I dialed it back a bit. It’s no JOG. I’m still running. But it’s not a max effort run. I save that for AFTER the warmup.

After this morning’s warmup, it was time for another benchmark!

“Cindy”
20min AMRAP
5 pull ups
10 push ups
15 squats

Results: 10 rounds + 5 pullups + 10 pushups + 4 squats w/ strict pullups on blue band & pushups on knees

I was slower this month, but that’s because I changed up my pullups. I’m going for strength — not speed — so I did strict pullups with the blue band.

Ow. I’m going to hurt tomorrow. I’ll be rolling out in the morning.

It’s a community of Crossfit

cindy and chavanni smile for cameraOne of the best things about my gym are the enthusiastic and supportive people.

It doesn’t matter where you’re from, what you do, or when you started. We all have something in common that binds us together.

On Monday night I dropped into Coach David DeLeon’s 7:30pm class to make up the one that was cancelled for Thanksgiving. They are a lively bunch! And incredibly friendly. Three people introduced themselves to me.

David later asked me how I liked the class and I mentioned how nice it was that several people introduced themselves. He told me he encourages them to do that.

It made such an impression on me, I’ve decided I’m going to try to do the same. I’ve been a little too reserved. It’s time to reach out and welcome new people.

The girl in the above picture with me isn’t exactly new, but I haven’t taken the time to talk to much in the hustle and bustle of class. This is (forgive me, I don’t know how to spell her name) Chavanni. She’s freakin’ strong as hell and always has a smile on her face, no matter how hard the workout. This is us after doing our floor press sets on Thursday.

Speaking of workouts! Here’s what I did at Crossfit this week.

Monday
Makeup Crossfit class
4 rounds: 10 shoulder press (70% 1RM) / 20 Good mornings / 400m run w/ KB (16k)
Finished 3 rounds + 6 shoulder press @ 45# in 19min

Tuesday
3 rounds: 500m row / 100m Hi/Lo KB walk / 5 front squats
Time: 15:19 @ 35#/25# & 85#

Thursday
Floor Press 5×5 –> 55-65-75-75-80
Tabata Med Ball Cleans (M 20# / W 14#) / Ring Rows
Results: 7 cleans / 8 rows

Bedtime stories and a week of PRs

Some people think we’re weird, but we don’t watch TV at my house. We ditched the TV years ago. Instead, we read.

Luke has a chair he curls up in with a book, and Mads has started bringing me books to read to her. At bedtime, Andy and I have been trading off reading chapter books to them. They listen and gradually fall asleep.

Unfortunately, I’ve been falling asleep too. That means I’ve been getting a great night’s sleep. It’s a little annoying, because there’s tons of work to do after the kids go to bed, but it’s been awesome for my workouts this week. It’s amazing what a difference a little rest can make.

“Crossfit Total”
1-1-1
Back squat → 135-145-150
Shoulder Press → 65-70-70
Deadlift → 185-190-195

Crossfit Total was split over Tuesday and Thursday.  I had PRs on all of the Crossfit Total lifts this week. I worked hard for each of those PRs — especially that deadlift. I was fighting to lift that 190# bar. I wish I had been able to lift 195#, but it didn’t budge. It’s amazing what a difference 5 pounds made. I’m sure it was partly mental, too.

I like the sleep I’ve been getting, but I’m trying not to let myself fall asleep that early every night. If you know me, then you know I have a zillion side projects and chores to take care of. TV? I don’t have time to watch TV!

Log books & Jackie

The people in my Crossfit class crack me up.

We have to bring our WOD books to class, and if one person forgets, everyone does burpees. So usually everyone has their books. Zach also tells us repeatedly to record our workouts in the book, so before class, as Aaron writes the WOD on the whiteboard, there is a circle of people all standing around writing it down in their books.

I don’t know why that’s so funny to me — maybe because because they look like they’re taking notes? I don’t know.

I wrote down the WOD ahead of time once and only once, and then Zach changed it or it was wrong or something, and I had to scratch it out. Ever since then, I refuse to write down the WOD before we actually do it.

I’m kind of funny that way.

“Jackie”
1K Row
50 Barbell Thrusters
30 Pullups

Time: 10:36 @ 35# bar / 2 purple bands

I encountered “Jackie” 2 years ago, and I used the 45# bar then. I kind of wish I had grabbed it this time. It would have been easier to compare. I’m definitely in better shape now. Rowing doesn’t exhaust me as much, but I’m still slow. My pullups are better, but I’m still on the band.

One day. Soon.

Where now?

Mads and me look at the camera

This is me & Mads one morning after a workout. I was sipping coffee, she was chowing on a banana. Love my girl!

I’ve been doing a lot of pondering lately over my next set of goals.
I have this one big, broad overarching goal: Be strong.

But the steps I want and need to take to get there have been less clear and so far undefined.

Andy and I have been discussing some of the things I want to accomplish, and he made a very accurate observation — some of the things I want are divergent from my other goals.

On the one hand I want to finally nail that unassisted pullup. (How long have I wanted that?!) But on the other hand, I have goals I want to achieve in Olympic Lifting that are less about strength and more about technique and form.

I guess, right now at least, I’m not really sure where to go from here. But I need to figure it out of I risk stagnancy and training in an unfocused way that could land me in the situation I found myself over the summer — burnt out and tired.

Zach has offered to sit down with me to help me work out my goals. I’m going to take him up on that offer, but first I’d like to have a more specific idea.

How strong is strong? Do I want to compete? If so, will it be as a Crossfitter or lifter? Do I just want to be able to do the Crossfit WODs RX, or do I want to focus on a new sport and enjoy the side benefits of getting strong?

There’s a lot to think about. In the meantime, here’s the WOD I did Tuesday. It was pretty grueling:

AMRAP 25 min
21 calorie Row
12 Front squats

Results → 5 rounds + 6 cal @ 80#

Those front squats were challenging!

Sunday night I started feeling pain in my left calf while wearing heels to a party. I’m taking care of myself, but it looks a little more serious than muscle soreness. I almost skipped class Tuesday morning to rest it, but I went and let the coaches know how I was feeling. I subbed out exercises in the warmup to lay off the ankle, and it was very helpful.

We’ll see, but I will be doing some serious resting this weekend. No running. No Race for the Cure. It’s just not worth it.

Halloween willpower

Madeline stares at the camera in her monkey costume, with Luke in the background.

How did you handle Halloween?

I found myself eating a lot of carrots this week. Luke and Mads brought home a lot of trick-or-treat candy on Monday night, and we didn’t have a lot of trick-or-treaters, so we had leftovers.

The candy is calling my name.

So far I have resisted the candy urge, thanks in part to a ready supply of baby carrots and knowing that Zach will read my food log. But it’s been tough. I’m craving sugar.

I’m also sore. It’s Thursday night, and I’m beat. Training has been really good, especially these past two days, but I’m in need of some serious massage therapy.

Wednesday: Olympic Lifting

Back squats: 70% x 5, 75% x 4 85% 4×4 → 95/100/115
Hip Power Snatch + OHS: 3+3 x 2, 2+3 x 2 → 35/45
Snatch off blocks: 3×2, 2×3, 2×1 → 45/55/60

Things went much better on Wednesday. My attitude was better, and I felt like I improved. This is a hard class — no doubt. It’s one of the most mentally and physically challenging things I’ve ever tried.

Thursday: Crossfit

Push Press: 5-4-3-2-1 → 55/65/75/80/85(scratch)

For Time:
21-15-9
KB swings (M 24kg / W 16kg)
Burpees
Wall ball shots(M 20# / W 14#)

Time → 8:22 RX

My wall ball shots were kind of a joke. I probably shouldn’t say I did the met-con RX because they weren’t high enough.

But check out that 80# push press — know what? I think that’s the first time I’ve push pressed anything over 75#. Looks like I’m getting stronger.